Thursday, June 21, 2007

The turning week...

After this week, my life is officially different than I've ever known! Why? Because I'm no longer in ministry! Tuesday night's Fusion was my last formal ministry event, however I do plan to try and hangout with a couple girls by the end of summer (didn't get all those grad gifts handed out).

Honestly, I'm trying to decide how I feel about this. I've always been doing highschool ministry! When I was in highschool I was in highschool ministry and since I've been out of highschool, I've been doing highschool ministry. Other than the transitional 4 months right after I moved to Portland, I've been doing highschool ministry. And now it's over.

Oddly enough, I'm okay with it. I think it's such a great example of God's perfect timing!! When I first started working with freshman girls 4 years ago, I told the leaders I couldn't commit to all 4 years because I didn't know where my life would be at in a year or two. But I could commit as long as I was around. Well, I was around all 4 years! Honestly, I didn't think I would be, although I wasn't sure where I would go.

God's timing truly is perfect because if I didn't have the super fun distraction and excitement of our coming wedding to plan and newly married life to look forward to, I'd be pretty bummed that my role in ministry was over. The shift from Insight (Sunday night HS program) to Fusion (Tuesday night college group) in February was great because we transitioned out of Insight early and didn't hit that stage at the same time as the end of school.

So, this week marks a big shift for me. As I met with a few friends I hadn't hungout with in a while, it was like the final closure to a season of life from last year. And my last time at Fusion marked my last official role in ministry. It is the turn to full speed ahead with wedding planning, marathon training (doing Portland in early October) and married life in 73 days!!

As I've been reflecting on this over the week, it feels kind of shallow in a way. But as I've made it one of my "goals" to seek to enjoy each stage of life for what it is, I've decided to look for how God shows up in this new stage. He obviously placed me in this phase at this time and it's fun to consider why and seek to serve him well as I just live, run, plan our wedding, dream a little, and continue to grow in my relationship and love for Mark! Rough life, I know... but someone's gotta do it ;)

2 comments:

noell said...

Good for you! In some ways it's hard to do just the getting married/hang out with your guy - because you tend to feel selfish! But as I continue to remind myself, this is the year that we're building a foundation for our relationship for the rest of our lives. That's important enough to take time off from other, important but less important, things. Love you friend!

Melinda said...

You have a healthy perspective on the here-and-now, one step-at-a-time attitude. Savor it! I am sure that God is glad that you take the time to appreciate each day that He gives you. His timing and phases are, indeed, perfect.